never

I lean to the side and knock to get your attention

As I turn my head back to my conversation I can see you smile

I fight giving you my full attention

I don't want to feel limerence

Or anything close

You make jokes about me bringing backup

I make joke about you never being there 

We laugh 

I bounce back and forth between the conversation with you and my "backup"  

I feel like you keep trying to draw me in

I get what I came for and start to depart

I turn the corner and you keep the conversation going

I imagine your eyes light up when you see me

But it's just a lighting trick

It's never me